An NDE Experiencer's Story

SHARING

Once in a while I share an experiencer story.  This time you will meet Soe, a Buddhist from Singapore.

  

I have experienced something I would call as an NDE 3 times consecutively, when I was in deep meditation and observing my heart until it started beating sooooo fast and then suddenly stopped!  I was literally thrown out of my body (meditating while lying in bed with eyes closed), and I traveled upwards at a speed so fast and right into the deepest of dark space.  There was nothing there except extreme peacefulness and total pitch blackness to the ends of all that my eyes could see.  Never had I seen such blackness so so pitch black!  I felt totally awake and totally aware.  But as my meditation practice was one of Buddhist satipattana mindfulness meditation, I would always be focusing on either my breath or my heartbeat and for me (after 5 months of practicing this), my focus on closing my eyes to meditate, would always go straight to my beating heart.  Now that my heartbeat was gone, I needed something to focus on, and so from looking outwards at the complete and utter silent darkness (with the feel that it was an arching darkness with the earth and other planets way below me far far down), I looked inwards towards myself and was so SHOCKED to see that I had NO BODY at all.  Yet I still had all knowing and I was completely and utterly ME!

This totally blew my mind and the shock just took me zooming back into my body.  As I had my phone beside me and I was so aware of what had happened, I checked the time on the phone.  I then meditated with eyes closed noticing my heartbeat again and again, I was sent off to this darkness and this peacefulness.  This time I noticed that I was actually connected to all the darkness as in there was no end to me and no beginning to the darkness apart from me.  As if my arms were extending across and hugging all there was in a peaceful and loving embrace.  I didn’t need anything or anyone.  It was just like floating in peace.  Quiet, still and all complete.  Again, though, I turned in and zoom was sucked back into my body on the bed again.  Again I opened my eyes being mindful of all this and checked the time again.  It was only a minute or so.  Then again I closed my eyes and again the out of body into the peaceful embracing silence and upon seeing my NO body inwardly, zapping back into body happens then third time.  With this I stopped meditating.  

I did not know what had happened or who to ask.  My meditation teacher from Burma was only reachable by email so I wrote a long note to him and he took exactly 10 day to reply.

During these 10 days I was in a daze of what had happened.  But I also found that the very next day - I woke up to all the sounds of birds singing so so clearly and I could even hear crickets!!!  My hearing was super sensitive.  My eyesight has always been super sharp in that I would sense and see things from my peripheral vision even.  I have always since very young been able to read the energy of people in I could sense who was kind and who was insincere.  I just knew.

Since this episode in 2013, I have had soooooo many more STEs.  My beloved father-in-law who passed in 2018 has even found a way of showing me he is very much still around.  My genuine hunger to always learn more and understand more about what had happened to me since that ‘awakening’ episode in my life, has led me to your talks and also IANDS, which I finally attended online this year.  I even listened to your talk there.  Every time I listen to anyone who speaks truth about who we are and why we are here, it just brings so much Joy and Peace to my world once again.  So I am addicted to Peace and Love and Light!

So I just wish to say I love you so very much and appreciate deeply all that you have been doing.  YOU are simply an amazing HUMAN BEING and soooooo sooooooo much more xxxxx.

May you be well and happy always and have the most beautiful holiday season with your loved ones.  

My name is Soe Moe Lwin and I am from Singapore and actually Buddhist by birth, as I was born in Burma.  I now understand that religion is for guidance of masses but spirituality is truth always.  :))

You are simply the youngest and most joyful 84 year old I have ever met - even on line :))  Thank you for this wonderful experience xxx)  I understood and thoroughly enjoyed your talk so so very much.  It is not easy for sure when so many sounds are in the background and sometimes, the flow is cut from the question or comment before you even finished your sentence.

But just as in life, everything happens for a reason and everyone is uniquely different (while all coming from the same source of love and light), so we learn to accept all as is.  But we always notice those who shine so so brightly, paving the way for the many still lost in the darkness.

You are such a beacon of guidance and hope for so many who have lived their lives without someone to share their true essence or feelings.  It can be a very lonely place when even those who ‘love’ you cannot accept ‘you,’ or truly understand what you are experiencing.  So as you say, it sometimes may be easier to allow them to think you are ’crazy’ than to try to explain.

All I can say now is that, I feel so blessed to have found, through many synchronicities, an amazing group of ‘crazies’ that I call my true light family within IANDS.

I will stop here.  There is so much more I would love to share.  With much Metta loving kindness, love and light.

Soe Moe