“Hello, I am contacting you because I was given your name from Karen Newell, with Sacred Acoustics. I saw Dr. Eben Alexander on Oprah, read his book, and have been reading some of the information on your website. I’m somewhat overwhelmed with the feelings I have right now and realize I am being guided to explore this further. I am aware of an NDE I experienced when I was 7 years old. I was beaten to death by my mother. My father and a doctor brought me back. My feeling is I had more than one NDE due to the severe nature of the abuse I was subjected to. My family is involved in a cult. I feel I also had one at age 14. In the NDE at 7 years old, I recall being with members of my Soul family with Source discussing my life and how difficult it was, and how I did not want to come back. That part of my Soul did not come back and a stronger part of my Soul came to endure the remainder of my life with my family. I had an extremely traumatic childhood until I got away from my family when I was 18.
“I have had no contact with them for several years once I remembered their involvement. I am turning 60 this year and had started a journey of recovery when I experienced flashbacks, and was flooded with memories of the abuse, when I was 31. I had no knowledge of any of this before this time. That began my journey in self seeking that continues now. It took 15 years to work through the memories. In this process, I have come to listen to my body and follow the energy where it leads me with an open heart. It has never steered me wrong so far. This feels like a significant element in my Soul’s remembrance and consciousness. So, I’m not sure what my question is to you, however I felt drawn to reach out and see where it leads me. More to be released, healed, and remembered. I have known for some time I need to write a book about my experience, but haven’t felt the energy was guiding me towards that until I read your statement about writing the story to integrate the experience.
“My goal is to write the book from a perspective of Love and Grace, not as a victim or even a survivor. I know I chose this life and was instrumental in shifting the consciousness of the people I encountered in that environment growing up. I recall the experience of seeing their heart chakra ignite a spark of light when they were around me. I have also since then come to know they suffer so deeply to have lost total remembrance of their True Nature and connection to Source. Not that I condone their actions in any way. But that is a gift of healing and Grace I was given to know how lost and in need of healing they are, rather than feeling I am their victim. Unfortunately there are a lot of people who have had my experience. I see that you are doing a study about this and I would like to get more details about that.
Thank you for your time.”….Judy
Well, hello Judy. Nice to meet you and have you share so many things with me. First, read my book The New Children and Near-Death Experiences. Although comparisons are made in the book between near-death kids and the new kids (born since around 1982), the entire book really is an in-depth study of child experiencers of near-death states. I’m certain once you start reading it, you will feel as if it is your story, written for you. The exercise of “making your book” doesn’t have to result in a “for sale” book. It can be pages and pages held together by yarn or ribbons, with a cover page and title, then everything you remember, everything! Give yourself space in the book to talk about memories and connections. Just doing this enables you to claim what is yours; it enables you to validate yourself and what you remember and what that means to you. Every experiencer, regardless of age, who did this, said it was the second most life-changing experience they ever had. The first was the experience itself. Making your book is soooooooooo important. . . for you! If you want to do a more commercial type, that’s good too. Yes, there are far too many boys and girls who experience what you did. They may not read your book until they are older, but it will help.
The research I am now doing is reprising that earlier study, only this time focusing entirely on cases from womb to age five. That timespan is unusually unique in how it affects children and the brain. What I would love to do, with your permission, is post your experience in my NDE Cases section of my website. I only use first names. If you want to send more than what you just did, that’s fine. But what you shared now will touch many. Thank you so much for sharing what you have. You are one of so many who’ve had such horrific experiences, yet what brief time you’ve had on the “other side” does indeed make a difference. It is so important to go back and relive, remember, forgive, heal, and move on. You are to be commended for what you are doing.