Adults integrate, Children compensate

 SHARING BY CHILD NEAR-DEATH EXPERIENCER

Once again I am carrying the actual words of an individual who had a near-death experience while quite young, and the effect that had throughout the individual’s life.  Remember, child experiencers are not like adult experiencers.  Where it takes the average adult 7 to 10 years to integrate their experience, it takes the average child 20 to 40 years.  Reason:  adults integrate, children compensate.  Most of them have no “before” to compare anything to.  Refer to:  THE FOREVER ANGELS:  NEAR-DEATH EXPERIENCES IN CHILDHOOD AND THEIR LIFELONG IMPACT.  

Katia, event occurred when 1 ½ years of age.

“I am so grateful I came across your work, as it is indeed the missing piece of the puzzle I had been waiting for all my life.  I discovered I had an NDE at 1 ½ years old.  I engaged in psychosynthesis therapy and the therapist, who was also a professional aura analyst, sent me home to investigate early trauma by asking my parents if something happened and the story came up.  I was 36 years old.  The therapist made sense of that by describing why my energy field was over developed in the higher regions (mind, imagination, etc.), and very poorly developed down below (grounding).  She helped to make sense of a lot of my “components, but your work makes everything clear.

“As a child I could see future events, told them to family in details, spent hours consciously space/time traveling and meeting entities.  Nobody could explain how come I could speak and read English, as I am Italian.  I felt different from other kids and was able to do homework assignments for the entire class in less than an hour.  I was hypersensitive and cried at each rain because trees would get wet.  It took my mum a few trips to a psychiatrist to assure me it was okay.  I could not sleep for an entire year when I was 10.  I never felt part of my family.  They would come to me to diagnose symptoms and get touched or massaged.  I don’t remember having to write, read, or swim.  It just came natural.

“Later on I watched for example of the periodic table and was able to memorize it all, and the next day was confident with chemical formulas of any type.  To this day I can’t explain how I did it, but it’s very much as you say - elements and formulas just appeared and I could see them and just wrote them down in front of the class.  My mum was sometimes desperate and could not deal with my weirdness.  That meant more trips to neuropsychiatrist and child psychologist.  I grew up increasingly dimming this light to fit in.  I remember purposely doing mistakes at school to be the same as other children of my age.  I succeeded in this and it lead me to codependency and feeling of inadequacy that I carry on my soul to this day.  

“I am 50 years as I write this.  I still have occasional astral travel so to 

say, most of times.  I find myself in clinical highly technological environment where I go every night for weeks, and sometimes for months.  While awake, sometimes I still find myself in random places with people I know, but also don’t know, and I am just there as an observer.  I usually don’t know what to do with these experiences.  I wish there was a way to integrate them, as they have a strong impact on my physical body:  feeling tired, drained, spaced out, sad.  I think your work is THE missing piece, and I am forever grateful to have come across it.”....Katia

As an “extra,” she later wrote:

“Until age 11, I used to meet people that only I could see.  I only realized this later.  Some of them informed me of random events that then happened, sometimes to the shock of relatives and friends.  I used to make up stories to entertain other kids, and they sometimes unfolded in front of our very eyes.  When my granddad died, I was trying to explain to people that this is wrong and that this is not death from where I came from.  OBEs still happen to me to this day.  I realize I am in that state because I try to switch lights on, and my arm goes through the wall, as if I were a ghost.  It happened much more as a kid.  I don’t particularly enjoy it.  I go to places that I know, because I go back to them over and over again, meeting these people who I somehow know they are my family.  They are Asian.  Homes are small and everything in them smaller than real.  I access “my” house through water that is up to the ankles and beautiful because I walk on perfect underwater mandalas made of tiny flowers.  The most relevant as an adult in 2000 - for three months I found myself every night into this sort of hi tech place with dozens of screens and these beautiful kind people all wearing white medical uniforms.  They spoke to me in perfect Italian for what felt like a long time.  The moment I knew I was waking up, I tried to hold as much info as possible, then I come to this side with a pop noise, like someone snaps a tube from my left leg.  This went on for months.  It happens now only randomly.  Last year was my last time when going out of the body was extremely physically pleasant.  I constantly communicate with faces and figures I see in clouds, trees, stones.  It is a very sweet sensation, peculiar because I have no sense of temperature.  I wish I could regulate and manage all this stuff, because at times I wonder what’s the use of it.”....Katia